"You've Got More People To Talk To"

It is on snowy days like yesterday and today that I miss Ben the most. Yesterday afternoon I laid down for a small nap (cold weather makes bed and blanket very appealing). I do not know how long I lay there, but I began to dream. It was one of those dreams in which you are still aware of reality. You can still feel the bed and pillow beneath you, but still you are in dream state. My mind wandered the corridors between waking and sleeping with ease. And then I saw him. We were suddenly outside. Twisted, leafless trees surrounded us and the snow that fell that morning blanketed the ground. I looked at him. He was laughing. I felt safe and happy, and for anything I wanted to stay there in that unknown place with him. I heard his voice - I do not remember what he said, but it made me laugh. Then he had to go. He turned and followed a snow-covered path away from me. I wanted to follow after him because I missed his laugh. I wanted him to give me a hug, so he couldn't leave yet. I began to follow him and he turned around:
"No Ruth, you can't come yet. You've got more people to talk to."
I couldn't go with him. He had talked to everyone he needed to. He had had all of the conversations he needed to have. I hadn't yet, so I had to wait. I didn't want to wait. I wanted to go with him because he was so happy, and I was so happy with him in that place.
I woke up instead and felt the tears gathering in the corners of my eyes. But I still have people I need to talk to.