"When will my reflection show who I am inside?"
My sister, Dani, and I recently watched Mulan. There are Disney movies, and then there are Disney movies. This particular movie has a very interesting message, for it is all about a girl who is willing to do anything to save her family and find out who she really is as a person. She spends most of the time messing things up and causing a general mess. However, in the end, she realizes that she truly is a wonderful person doing exactly what she is doing, messes included. It is a very cute, fun movie.
Partway through the movie, in a musical montage, she asks, "when will my reflection show who I am inside?" She questions her identity as a daughter, as a girl, as fulfilling her place in society. I couldn't help but take this question and mull it over myself and wonder if I could ask the same question.
First, I reasoned, who we are inside is not all that amazing. In fact, were I to show who I really was inside, those around me would be horrified. Do I really want my reflection to show who I am inside? No, I really don't, because who I am inside is very dark.
How can this girl, seeing all of the mistakes she commits, still wish for the world to see what is inside of her? I would not want this to happen. Ever.
But if what is inside of me not my own, then would I want it to come out?
Here lies the deeper meaning, for my reflection shows who I am right now, outside. But if what is truly inside of me reveals itself, the work of Christ in my heart would be laid bare.
Do I really cringe at the thought?
No, I fear that the work would not be what comes out. I fear that my work would come out, and that is not a good work. But if the work that is Christ's in me is truly there, it will eclipse my own pathetic, outward works. And thus I sing, "when will my reflection show who I am inside?" as I wait for the work of Him in me to be fully revealed.
My sister, Dani, and I recently watched Mulan. There are Disney movies, and then there are Disney movies. This particular movie has a very interesting message, for it is all about a girl who is willing to do anything to save her family and find out who she really is as a person. She spends most of the time messing things up and causing a general mess. However, in the end, she realizes that she truly is a wonderful person doing exactly what she is doing, messes included. It is a very cute, fun movie.
Partway through the movie, in a musical montage, she asks, "when will my reflection show who I am inside?" She questions her identity as a daughter, as a girl, as fulfilling her place in society. I couldn't help but take this question and mull it over myself and wonder if I could ask the same question.
First, I reasoned, who we are inside is not all that amazing. In fact, were I to show who I really was inside, those around me would be horrified. Do I really want my reflection to show who I am inside? No, I really don't, because who I am inside is very dark.
How can this girl, seeing all of the mistakes she commits, still wish for the world to see what is inside of her? I would not want this to happen. Ever.
But if what is inside of me not my own, then would I want it to come out?
Here lies the deeper meaning, for my reflection shows who I am right now, outside. But if what is truly inside of me reveals itself, the work of Christ in my heart would be laid bare.
Do I really cringe at the thought?
No, I fear that the work would not be what comes out. I fear that my work would come out, and that is not a good work. But if the work that is Christ's in me is truly there, it will eclipse my own pathetic, outward works. And thus I sing, "when will my reflection show who I am inside?" as I wait for the work of Him in me to be fully revealed.
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